Thanks for your lovely thoughtful response . My motivation for learning pole is to turn personal tragedy into something beautiful. In 2020 , my beautiful husband of over 30 years lost his sanity and tried to kill me . He was arrested and then the full depth of his illness became visible . He developed psychosis , paranoid delusions and lost all executive function . He
left me alone with a 3 year old son that he had been the main carer of . In hindsight I realized that the child he had insisted we have was his way of surviving when his brain was failing . It was the middle of Covid and as an ICU doc I was in the middle of a massive surge of patients . Work kind of became my focus and then my sister ( an avid pole dancer of 60 years of age ) introduced me to pole . It was the first light I saw in months
Two years later and I have survived but I live with incredible grief . Pole dancing is my analogy to prove to myself that I can overcome the impossible and rise again . Pole dancing is a symbol of not just survival but thriving and living again
You are so correct about talent not always coming through in the way we want it to
I am an artist in my spare time and after my husband was arrested I drew the picture below
It’s called Phoenix and Ashes
It’s about rising from the ashes and being reborn
That ia pole to me .
You are an amazing teacher and even through I get frustrated with myself , I will never quit pole as I love it !
It reminds me of the line in Hallelujah ‘ she tied you to your her kitchen chair , She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Sometimes incredible pain brings forth something beautiful