Hi Fridasiren and welcome!! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif
You are not a basket case!!!! When I joined StudioVeena I wasnt able to use my pole either. My ceiling had been damaged by a leak and I couldnt use the pole. I found the site really good because I felt ‘in the loop’ still. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif
And when you can eventually use your pole again the people on this site will be more than willing to give you hints and tips on the approach to take!
Great to have you here! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_flower.gif