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Hehe amcut… baby mama call!! Yeah I’m looking forward to worrying about that one!
Thanks Polephile! Honestly…I’m just an idiot…I’m such a hyperchondriac. If I read too much stuff on the internet I start being CONVINCED that I have symptoms of it, however vague the symptoms are.

I went and I actually feel a LOT better now. Like obviously I’m still really worried about the result but the nurse was so nice because I was obviously so scared. I was also asking to a re-prescription of the pill….and they have to take your blood pressure for it, and I was so scared about getting the HIV part of the test that my blood pressure was stupidly high…she had to take it FOUR times to get an accurate result and tell me "imagine youre on a beach and everything is calm…breathe" https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif
She told me that with my sexual history she very much doubted I had HIV but it was good I was getting a test anyway, and…yeah basically she was just great, It’s definitely better that I get tested anyway, as opposed to just sitting around putting it off. I got a smear test too.So hopefully everything will be okay. Just gotta wait it out. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_bounce.gif

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I second Trena, you have definitely inspired me to go and get checked out. Honey this must be really scary for you, and I know if I were in your position I would be scared too. But like Polephile says its NOT YOUR FAULT. These things happen, it sucks but they do. There was no way you could have known, but it’s really lucky you were sensible enough to go and get it checked out, so you should congratulate yourself for that. I’m sure you will be able to have babies when you want to, as you say, not being able to is only a very drastic theoretical instance.
Anyway I have my fingers crossed for you, I will pray for you and I hope the tests come out clear! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_cat.gif https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_flower.gif
Good luck sweetie x x

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*shudders* I’ll definitely be checking my pole constantly now! Oh well I guess its better to be paranoid! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_flower.gif

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hmmmm…if I’m completely honest the second weekend of march would really be a loottt better for me? I dunno if i can make the first… but I can try my best if thats the only time people are free? https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif sorry to be annoying!

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yaaay thanks veena!

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any examples of a sad girl drop?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDhwXYBErjg https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

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I’m free first weekend of march! Polekitten do you have enough space for another pole to be brought along? If theres quite a few people it might be good to have more than one pole.
Polephoenix where abouts is northants? Is that near Milton Keynes? My geography is so rubbish…especially as its fairly near where I live. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif
As for whether its a daytime or night thing…I propose…daytime….but maybe…drinks in the evening?? https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif

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Very succinctly and nicely put…hehe and thanks for replying, always nice to know someone has read it…though my rants are sometimes very rambley…I don’t really expect anyone to manage to get to the end of them. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

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Thank you hun that really helped! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

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is there a tutorial of the sad girl drop? I really wanna try but I’m kinda scared I’d just break my ankle. lol.

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I hate the word whore. especially when it’s directed at people who are simply doing an exercise regime. I didn’t make it past the one minute mark. She’s obviously a thicko…and no amount of intelligent reasoning would change that. Sigh.
And lol Runemist I love how you make a perfectly valid point and she replies with "Whatever? you say ….hoe."

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Oooh! I find this really interesting, I’m thinking of getting me on of these things. My friend has a mooncup and she loves it http://www.mooncup.co.uk/ I guess its the same thing. She said she found it difficult to get used to the first time but now its easy as pie.

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Oh also…I like my boobs…they are small and cute and I wouldn’t have them any other way. I like my lips. And I like my eyes. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif
Celebrate yourselves girls and boys! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_cheers.gif https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_bounce.gif

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Aw this is so nice. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif Thanks for starting this thread!

2 years ago I had this crazy ‘epiphany’…I was with my boyfriend…it was about 5am and we were pretty drunk, it was a hot summers night and we’d been out. I remember feeling really self conscious because I was wearing shorts and quite a skimpy top and they were a bit too small for me and I thought looked fat, kept pulling my top down to cover my tummy etc…anyway I complained "Ugh, my clothes don’t fit me"
and he mumbled "Well you always look hot to me" and I rolled my eyes and got into bed with him.

We were lying there for ages and I was having silly drunk, emo thoughts about everyone I knew who had problems/ pain in their lives and I (having an amelie moment) said "I wish I could make everyone I knew happy"
And my bf said. "Well the first step towards that is to be happy yourself."

And then it clicked. It was such an obvious thing he said, and he was half asleep and had no idea what impact he had just made on me but it was like I suddenly saw clearly. It was almost like a spiritual experience I swear. I had a LOT of stupid issues in my teens, depression and quite a serious eating disorder…and I’d never been happy with how I looked.
But suddenly everything made sense. Why can’t we (especially women) just accept compliments? When my bf had said to me "You always look hot to me" why couldn’t I just accept that compliment, why did I roll my eyes disbelievingly. Why do we always have to answer "Oh thanks but I HATE this part of me" or "no I look awful". It is true that…unless you really love yourself it’s so hard to open up and love others. And you can’t expect people to respect you if…you don’t respect yourself.

I suddenly realised that…I was a nice person. I look fine. My body is fine. Theres nothing WRONG with me. In fact theres a lot of stuff RIGHT about me.

I was, for the very first time…completely happy to be me. It was such an overpowering feeling that I don’t think I’d felt since I was a kid, and I started to cry a little bit because I was so happy. Obviously then my bf sat up, alarmed saying "WHATS WRONG WHY ARE YOU CRYING??" because he had no idea what had just happened in my head, heh…but I reassured him I was fine, and went into the bathroom, and I turned on the lights and I remember looking at myself in the mirror…
and the clothes that I had been wearing that hadn’t fit 10 minutes ago…were completely fine. They fit PERFECTLY.
I was completely amazed. They looked SO much better. Now thats body dysmorphia for you! When I was thinking negative thoughts about my body, I had thought my clothes hadn’t fit at all, kept riding up…and as soon as that cloud was lifted…they fit. PERFECTLY.

ANYWAY. Long story short! I hope every one of you ladies has an experience like that someday and realises how beautiful you really are! Because you are! And when people compliment you, usually they are being completely sincere so accept it! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_bounce.gif https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_flower.gif

So back on topic lol…

I like my legs. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif I have quite muscley legs but they’re long so the muscle looks good. They are slim but quite shapely. They look awesome in heels! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_cheers.gif

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awesome hipshaker and margie, you should def join! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_bounce.gif and audball, yaay definitely let some of us know the next time you’re in london, I’m sure we could arrange something! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif

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Hello all the way from…London as well! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif Yay, we need more londoners! congrats on getting your pole, thats exciting! Post some pics and videos! And defintely pop into chat each friday, everyone kind of gathers to ..well chat and pole and give each other tips etc etc. Its fun!
Good t have you here! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_cheers.gif
Oh and …yes felix is AMAZING.
x

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I like this post. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif

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Thanks for the link chemgoddess, theres so much on there! I’m definitely thinking of taking up hooping veena, looks like so much fun…only tiny problem might be the space issue…

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hehe window cleaner/shaving cream…ah the tricks of our trade! https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif

Hair spray is my saviour in this horrible weather.

First I turn the heating UP, then get my pole as warmed up as possible, (pole ups/small spins), then I spray a tiiiiny bit of hair spray on each hand…then as I’m using the pole, the pole will end up getting easier and easier to grip! Make sure u don’t use too much though because then you just stick like a fly on wall paper…good for some moves…not very graceful for spins!

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woop! you know I am! Although not in the immediate area. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif

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Just explain that it him, it sounds perfectly reasonable. After all, why shoudn’t you want your own time, to do anything?

Just say "Hey I know it sound stupid but sometimes I get a little self conscious when I’m practicing pole in the same room as you, because I’m a beginner…I’d love to dance for you but I’d prefer to dance for you when I am experienced and happy with my performance and skills…but I need to have a little alone time to get used to it on my own."

Say it in a breezy way to make it clear to him its not a big deal, its not HIM that makes you uncomfortable but the fact that you’re a beginner and explain to him it takes a lot of getting used to dancing confidently round a vertical pole!

I think he should understand, maybe emphasize to him how much it is simply part of your exercise routine, as opposed to sexy time https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_razz.gif. For example, if you were doing an aerobics dvd or whatever, you might not necessarily wanna do it in front of him. (I don’t like doing exercise dvds/etc in front of anyone…especially my bf and ESPECIALLY when I’m starting something new and feel unfit and I’m sweaty and gasping for breath and …ew)

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no problem!! Ooooh yeah, natalie portman was so gorgeous in that wig! I’m jealous actually, need to gather some cash somehow soon and buy pretty stuff.
Happy shopping, and enjoy london! How long you staying for?

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Hi! Well I don’t know any official stores, though I’m sure there are plenty BUT go to camden! There are a ton of shoe shops lining camden high street and ALL of them sell a huge range of killer pole shoes, and beautiful thigh high pvc boots, loads of different styles. Also loads of cute costumes and well, and wigs, accessories….its basically awash with stripper/poling/rave/alternative gothy stuff. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif Theyre good prices as well!

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Oh this is a good one….I don’t have the mental energy to right a big long response but I totally feel that if its the woman’s choice… then it surely doesn’t exploit them!!!
Isn’t feminism about women having the choice to do what they want? If I want to dance on stage or stay at home with my kids…who cares! Sorry if this seems random but I get my "panties in a knot" over this topic

I agree 100% with this Roxy. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_thumleft.gif

Definetly! I agree 100% also! I would like to clarify as well that what I am talking about in my massive rant (if any of you actually bother to read it…I just realised how long it is!) is literally me pondering over how I feel about MYSELF dancing in regards to how I feel about feminism not ANYONE else. Because feminism IS about having the choice. And I think where feminism goes wrong is when women (and men) start demanding each other act in some sort of ‘perfect way’. Everyone should have the fundamental right to make their own choices, man or women.

Ah I’m gonna shut up because my head is buzzing.

Sorry for subjecting you all to my ridicuous thoughts, I will end with:

I love women and men I think we’re all great. I love poling, I think its awesome. I think stripper shoes are flipping BEAUTIFUL. Tralalala. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_pirat.gif

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Hmm. I am definitely a feminist. And…as much as I hate to admit it (because I LOVE pole dancing and have so much respect for pole dancers and for strippers) there are tiny elements about it that sometimes makes me uneasy. Just because….

I sometimes wonder why our definition of sexy…is what MEN think is sexy. Why do we want to act like women who are stimulating arousal for men, as opposed to being what we find naturally sexual and ‘womanly’? I put womanly in quotation marks because I don’t actually think our culture really knows what being a woman is. I think being a woman is generally defined in mens terms…it seems we are either irrational/emotional/butch/non sexual/angry feminists, or we are sexy/glamourgirl/big boobed/sex objects. I know that obviously this is because we live in a consumerist society and this is what we are reduced to, this is how the media portrays us etc etc. I’m sure men are put in this kind of position as well. But regardless I really hate it and I think because these kind of images are everywhere, even if you think you don’t adhere to the imagery…it can still affect you and shape your ideas and I think it’s dangerous.

I may not be making much sense here, but it is something I’ve been thinking about a lot, I just don’t quite know how to vocalise it coherently yet.

I don’t know, sometimes I get scared there MAY be a danger of women jumping on board the "reclaim the stripper" stuff because maybe while we think it will be empowering…it might be that we are simply re-affirming the imagery that to be sexy we must ‘pretend’ to be this mans ideal of a sexy/glamourgirl/sex object…as opposed to being sexy for the way we really are.

BUT I also think if we were ever going to celebrate what what a women really is, there is no better way than celebrating it through the fitness/endurance/agility/beauty/hotness/FUN/STRENGTH that pole dancing offers. And I also really love and find exciting the sexy, sultry side to pole dancing as well. And I don’t even dance for my bf…so ….it is purely for me and I do find it brilliant fun. Am I finding it fun because society has conditioned me to think this is fun? Maybe? Who knows? https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif

You only need to take one look at this forum though and see so many happy, empowered women, so I suppose the facts don’t lie. https://www.studioveena.com/img/smilies/icon_e_biggrin.gif