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Im 5’8 nd no one knows i weigh 220. I told someone that the other day nd they ddnt believe me. I can do pull ups, run longer nd faster than most who are “skinny” or weigh less than me. It dont matter. Just practice practice practice.

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……what i have now. I look at instagram alot and i think im frustrated with not being where i feel i should be.
im gonna slow down and focus on something different like was said.
plus @veena i will be purchasing the catepillar program

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Thanks everyone. I think i think ahead to much and just need to perfect

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@serzi your absolutely right. The biggest thing is i proved the ppl who said i couldnt do it right. But wrong! I just see what i have to do next time.
nd yes my brother takes medication, hes totally dependent on it, it zombifys him when I KNOW depression can be beat.

Ive always fealt different than others, nd im trying new things. What also depresses me is change, letting go of the old, moving on in a better direction nd leaving i care about behind, being a leader and standing up for what i know is right, wanting to do better nd seeing my friends spiral out of control. I think life hurts right now, im moving in a different direction nd im lonely but not for long. 🙂

Medication can worsen depression if u ask me.

Nd thank you

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I dont want to take medication because i dont like medicine, even taking pain meds for minor pain. Its also i want to learn how to beat depression without. I fall in a slump at the most 3 times a year for about a month and i always make it out but this time ive been down longer than normal.

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Thanks guys!!! I just feel sick and i can feel myself start to sink. 🙁
omg, yes i really want my business back tho. And i understand everythint you guys are saying.
thank you

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Thats the number one issue. Im in michigan and its super cold, but i turn the heat on and warm up with spins. -__-lol i just gotta keep working at it. Thx

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Pleaser illusion 1018 textured heel boots

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slooooow down while your dancing. Practice floor work, and pirouettes

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Find music that moves you, practice in heels, watch great dancers and FEEL IT AND GO WITH THE FLOW!!!
sometimes i get caught up with how i should look but do what you feel

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Im gonna try veena.

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Knee tucks, bicep hold, pole holds,
When you do knee crunches hold them at the top.
planks

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@tiger im gonna try it but huuuuuuh im so frustrated lol ….

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@pheonixhunter whats the difference between a forearm grip and an elbow grip

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Ok i dont have any shoes right now, but thats a good idea. I will be getting some tho.
and yes they are heavy. 5lbs each