So fed up....

Hi all, I've been poling for roughly 10 months now, and I have just come back  from a 2 month break due to holidays/illness/work. Tonight I was due to have my first pole class for a few months, however it was cancelled :( I thought that I'd go home and try a few moves on my home pole- and I am shocked, disgusted and upset at how much strength I've lost. Moves that I could do are a struggle- I could deadlift both my shoulder and iguana mount, however now I'm lucky to get my legs halfway up. No real point to this post, just feel so fed up knowing it's going to take me ages to get back to where I was. As well as that, I've probably put on half a stone and feel like a fat lump. Anyone else been in a similar situation?