Back to basics

Hello, This week I have started to get back into pole dancing as I had been away from it for a good 6 months.... During that time I've been hula hooping and just dancing. I've noticed in the past, I've had troubled getting past a certain point. I feel as if I'm still stuck at beginner even though I've been doing it on and off for about 2-3 years. Does anyone else have a fear of slipping off the pole every time you attempt a trick? If so, how do you overcome it? Also I've done classes and managed to grade into intermediate prep... But that was at the start of last year and I didn't go further. I do have social anxiety so I always have trouble committing to my classes and have been practising at home. I have the titanium gold xpole installed in my house and just wanting to know anyone else's experiences with getting over any hurdles when it comes to pole dancing... :) thanks.