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Disaster!
I had a performance disaster a little over an hour ago and I’ve just gotta vent.
I’ll start by saying I did okay considering everything that went wrong, but oh man, so many things went wrong. I feel really angry and frustrated.
The night started with me approaching the event’s DJ whom I had paid three weeks ago to prepare a mix for my performance. I had spoken to him briefly about the status of the mix a few times before, but was trying not to hound him. Maybe hounding was the answer. But tonight was performance night and upon arriving at the venue I asked him, "is there a chance that I can hear the mix at least once before I have to perform to it?"
He replied, "Oh, was that for tonight?"
So I ended up having to perform to music I had never heard before, which meant that I could not use the routines I had loosely prepared.
I had arranged for one fellow to set the pole to spin when I got off of it and went to the floor. He dallied around with it for a few moments, but failed to set it to spinny, so I had to do that myself, which was awkward and time consuming.
I was a total fish out of water. All I can say positive about the night was that I kept moving and never stopped dancing. But I really didn’t know what I was doing without the music I had prepared, and never having heard the track to which I had to perform. I had to freestyle everything which is not a particularly strong area. I don’t choreograph rigidly, but I usually have an idea for some moves and routines that I want to combine in a performance. I unfortunately choreographed to music I didn’t get to use.
The audience did like me, at least. Also I got to showcase some moves I recently have acquired, including the horizontal pencil split and the Marley. But between the music problem and the failure to get the pole set to spin mode in a timely and organised fashion, there was nothing polished or clean about this performance.
Combine this with the knowledge that the venue and the particular production are not progressive, are not familiar with pole and not particularly pole friendly, and you may get the picture of what I had to contend with.
I know there are negative occurrences in the life of every performer, and I accept this, but I still feel angry right now. I felt like a monkey goofing off, not a qualified dancer. I feel I did everything that was in my power to be prepared, but the fates didn’t smile on me tonight.
I apologise for having to dump my mood on all of you nice people, but I needed to share with people who might understand.
Thank the Gods though, I just kept moving, and the audience was generous.
Oh yeah, and the videographer screwed up the filming too… LOL – part of the recording was lengthwise and part of it was sideways. I’m not going to try very hard to get a copy of that recording, though.
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