wishes

I am new. However. Am very much passionate about pole. By far not fantastic at my art but I am still proud of what I hav acomplished so far. But the thought that creeps into my head that I have a hard time shaking is the wish. This darn wish that I dream about. This wish that can bring me down some days. A wish that messes with my flow.... I find my self wishing I stared poling when I was younger. When I was still crazy flexable and strong. Could put my body in any position from compition figure skating training. When I had control of my body. Not my body having control of me. But I love pole. And I'm not going to sit here and let my head mees up somthing I love. So I decided today. It doent matter if I have a bad "pole day" I did it. And if all I acomplished was one new move. Or more confodance in an old move. Or stretched in stead of doing floor work. Or did floor work instead of tricks. I still practiced. And that's what counts. It doesn't matter if I'm not as flexible as I was when I was 20 ...cauz I'm not 20!! I'm 30. And more passionate about somthing than I have been ...well...since I was 20. So I don't need to wish for flexy. Strength. Stamina. Anything from where I was before. Because I wouldn't be where I am today. Wouldn't have the passion I have for pole like I do. If I started 10 years ago. I am where I am saposed to be. And I'm happy. I think this is what pole is to me. Hey. Look at that. :) No more wishing. Just living and loving Xox