Super Bummed :(

I am soooo bummed.  I have been poling almost 2 years this August.  I poled and stretched every opportunity I got --no setback--until now.  I was diagnosed with Crohn's/Colitis (they are still unsure exactly what I have) in 1997 and have had few flare-ups since initial diagnosis.  I've been lucky.  I might get one severe one a year and small ones through out.  I am in the middle of a bad one currently.  It is sapping my energy, my appetitte. All I do is sleep and try to keep hydrated. It is so depressing because I know when I go to pole my strength will be nada and I had worked so hard to get where I was. I guess I am just frustrated.  Any tips to lessen the blow when I *am* feeling better?  I'm feeling moderadely better the last couple of days and I am anxious to get back on my baby and pole :(.  In reality it has only been since last Friday (just over a week) that I poled so that is not long, but I so desperately miss it.  I do lazy stretches and stuff to at least feel a part of it. I sadly watch videos wondering when I will be full functioning again, even though I know my body needs to heal. Thanks for listening ladies :)