Saved from tragedy by Dance :)

omygosh. this has been the weirdest 3 months of my life. i've had candida (fungus) for 10 years, and it seemed to go into my back. sometimes my back hurts, and mainly i have problems walking the past 3 months. i've been on the atkins diet for 6 years, because all carbs turn into sugar in your bloodstream, and feed the candida. i've missed 10 weeks of work, only 2 more to go to get paid, and my supervisor isn't willing to modify my job for less walking, even tho its an office job and it would be easy to do so. i've been there 7 years. i've seen 3 doctors and they can't find anything wrong with me--candida is not accepted in general medical practice. i am going to see a candida specialist with mom's help in chicago in 2 weeks--after my paid time runs out. anyway, i gave my notice for my nice 1br apt, and am getting rid of tons of stuff i never use anyway--clothes, books, dishes, that part is really nice. so, i was going to apply for a call center, hope they would hire me in this economy with walking problems. then i could at least get a cheap room with roommates and pay bills! my sister and i...are like nemesis, well, she's mine, i had nightmares about her for 10 years. she's a counselor in a school and has the whole summer off. my parents are out of state, and she'll be visiting them for ALL of June and July! my mom told me i can't come home until after then! i didn't ask whose decision that was...! so i don't have any family in town, tho a couple of friends might help out with a place to stay if i have to. i usually see a psychic once a year. she told me the MOST important thing for me to do is dance, my own unique style, because then 'other things will happen'... so i was really stressed today, and i know stress releases hormones that are bad for your health--'fight or flight'. so if you start moving, your body uses them because it thinks its in 'flight', escaping whatever it is. so i started dancing (floor, not pole--i just put it back up tho! i'm a pole beginner). i've been dancing some, i can even workout on my elliptical--but walking around, i go reeeallly slow and stagger around, my knees are shaky like water, some days worse than others. i don't know what it is. i've literally fallen down sometimes, people asked if they should call an ambulance, wouldn't let me drive home. but...i can dance. the doctor even said to move around as much as possible 🙂 doesn't make sense, i know. my dancing is mostly hips and shoulders = a lot of back movement 🙂 so i was thinking...i could go back to school full-time if nothing else works out...! FOR DANCE. now, i'm way older than most people for going back to school for dance. i already have a degree. but i've ALWAYS loved dance, one thing i was made to do. just all these years, i listened to my psycho critical mother saying all 'that stuff' (anything i'm into!) is worthless. so...THIS IS THE HAPPIEST I'VE BEEN IN MY LIFE. after seeing an option to go back to school to major in dance! i know its impractical, but this is the last chance to do what i've always wanted in my life--like a 2nd shot at life. i seem to walk better after dancing too... with candida, you're supposed to workout--it increases oxygen and your immune system. so, i'm going to work out and dance and pole all summer, so i can do well on an audition for dance college this fall...! can you believe it! it took a life crisis to FINALLY do what i've always wanted to do with my life. why didn't i do that years ago? its my 2nd chance. its amazing 🙂 this is the music i've been dancing to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqLCMkwEvzI onclick="window.open(this.href);return false; lis milwaukee, wi