@Baglady Can relate to the peculiar peace in chaors...when a big problem comes along an eerie calm floats in and takes over. I've always wondered if its because little problems seem like they are just barely out of control so is so ridiculous its happening. Whereas big problems its like, well, this is happening no matter what so may as well do what I can given the situation. All we can do is take responsibility for how we respond to it, and move forward one step at a time.
But yeah eerie calm when the world comes crashing down around you. Grace under fire. Its kind of a good thing to have. Also, with depression, I feel like when something big happens its almost as if the feelings of everything being terrible are validated by this one thing being ACTUALLY terrible. Like you feel a a little less crazy and now there's something to focus on vs floundering in inexplicable depression, knowing it makes no sense, which just makes you more depressed. Anyways, this all may sound nuts, but I have serious bouts of this kind of thing and sometimes its nice to know other people feel like that too (usually more often than they care to admit). Glad that you're out of the mental storm and into a tangible one (not GLAD, but well, you know what I mean...). You are quite the strong lady.
Good luck with all the ridiculousness and if you see your old place posted on craigslist or something I would post something related to it letting people know that the landlord is shady and to check water heaters and every nook and cranny...Not sure if you can do that...but if you can...just a thought. For the safety of those people and for the fact that landlord should have to be up to code. As a Texan, can confirm the renters laws in the south are rubbish. I've got some friends that rent out houses and are pretty well versed in that stuff, maybe they'll have some helpful info to share. Not exactly sure what state you're in but worth a shot