I was poling for several years before I got my boobs done. I did a lot of research & interviewing before I made my decision. A key factor for me was that every woman I spoke to said she would have the surgery again if she were to do things over again. Even the ones who has complications said so. No one regretted their surgery.
It concerns me slightly to read that you're unhappy with yourself. Surgery is a big decision & if you're insecure, a boob job won't fix that. So I hope you're doing it for the right reasons. I loved my body very much before surgery & didn't suffer from low self esteem. But I wanted a change & felt a breast augmentation would balance my figure out a little. I was an A cup and now I'm a C or D, depending on the brand of bra. Like you, my boobs were a gift to myself when I turned 30 :)
If you're sure a boob job is for you, then the best advice I can give you is to very carefully research your surgeon. He is everything and will determine what kind of experience you have. Make sure he has all the proper certifications, lots of experience, positive patient reviews, pictures of his work. Start asking every girl you know who has the surgery. Maybe we are very open about these things in Vegas, but every girl I spoke to was happy to tell me about her experience & helpful.
Your surgeon will also be the best person to select for you over or under muscle, silicon or saline implant, number of CCs. You can see why it's so important that he be someone you trust. I explained to my doctor that I was active in the aerial arts & used my upper body a great deal & that really affected his choices.
Mine were under the muscle, "gummy bears," a type of silicone that is very thick to prevent leakage in the event of a rupture. I was never in pain. I was very sore, but that was the worst. I used pain medication (at my doctor's request) for only one day after the surgery. It is a good idea to have someone to help you in your home for at least maybe 3 days after surgery. Bring you water, keep track of your meds. I slept a lot after my surgery.
I was back on the pole about 3 months after surgery. I was surprised that I had not lost all my strength. But the muscles around the boobs have tightened and will have to stretch out to feel like they used to. Only now, 2 years later, do my implants really feel like part of my body. But that's normal from what I have heard, don't let it scare you. It took many more months before I could do a pull-up but now it's not an issue. The only pole move I have felt my boobs get in the way of is a version of the flag where the pole is basically pressed right against your boobs. I have done it, but found it kinda painful. I asked my doctor if I should avoid the pose in case of rupture but he said it was fine.
I love my boobs & am so happy that I had the surgery. No regrets at all.
I hope this was helpful. Good luck :)
