aaahhhh I love all you guys!!!! this thread has made me feel all warm and gooey inside hehe. it's beautiful to see us all connecting like this , and especially that it has come from our difficulties =)
shoog it's like looking in a mirror! throat eh?? communication and speaking your mind … mine definitely needs some tlc!!! and I too recently dissolved one of my oldest friendships; we had been best friends for…. over 10years! and for the longest time I thought we would be friends forever. so I hung in there when things started to feel strained and I battled with myself telling myself it would come right again. then it became all too obvious how toxic the relationship had become, and I found the courage to make a clean break – she made it very easy for me in the end. she has now moved away, and my life is happier and I have one less dead weight dragging me down. and I am learning not to be so patient with those people who would try to take advantage of my good nature… possibly a little cynical yes… but I think for me that is no bad thing to not be so open and naïve and giving to those who would abuse it =) I have my lovely boyfriend to thank for being my endlessly supportive rock – he always has my back and helps me to be a bit more of a bastard when I need to be haha!! and pole as well is really helping me find my inner strength, and to recognise what is important and what is superficial ...
Allyson have you ever had reiki? sounds like your new yoga teacher is quite the healer… ! =) I would definitely want to spend more time with her she sounds amazing. but you hit the nail on your head with your situation – it is difficult to make decisions which benefit only ourselves ! it is much easier to put our self out rather than someone else, isn't it ??! This is one area in my life I am working on – learning to say no for my own wellbeing, and learning to not feel guilty about it!! it is self-fulfilling/gratifying, every time I refuse an invitation I would usually have accepted I feel a sudden rush of joy that I can now do whatever I WANT with my time (usually nothing, but the nothing time is just as important as anything else!) and it helps you the next time u have a similar situation, and the next…. At Christmas time my parents and older sister went back to Scotland to see all the rest of our family, but it meant an (at least ) 8hr drive each way in bad weather and a hectic gathering with lots of family, then a rush back in time for work again …I gently refused, knowing deep down i needed a quiet break. this was ABSOLUTELY UNHEARD OF!!!!! and I wrestled with my decision right up until my sister left… 1 day later she is messaging me telling me how stressed she is and how she wished she hadn't bothered and had stayed with me….. it is one of the hardest things in the world putting yourself first, but for people like us it is so important… =D and the benefits are immeasurable …..
tamarinda I know the feeling =/ I am lucky enough to have a few friends who are very spiritual , but most people look at you funny when you start going into this stuff… I get it, I am still trying to wrap my head round some of the ideas myself yes some of it is farfetched, but then the more you discover it seems obvious that OF COURSE this is how the world works and we are just waking up to the knowledge…. but some people will always be sceptical . my sister always jokingly dismissed it all as ‘hocus pocus hippy voodoo bullshit', so I just kept it to myself around her never discussed it with her at all, and it was a long time before she became receptive to any of it and agreed to let my friend reiki her … (it was funny, I remember at the time that annoyed a little, that she wouldn't put any stock in it when it was ME talking, but that she listened when it came from someone else… mini grumble) but I guess we have to let everyone find their own path in life, and just try to connect ourselves with like-minded souls. I am finding more and more of them lately popping up everywhere ! =D
Book recommendations yaay love it! might I suggest ‘The Celestine Prophecy' – mind-blowing book, really something else…everyone should read it. and anything by Betty Shine , wonderful wonderful very likeable healer lady.
Wow!!! apologies for the essay.... Thank you so much ladies this has been massively cathartic for me and i love hearing your thoughts – just what I needed this week!
