Can't get motivation since having my baby

So hi guys I haven't been on here in a while and I now have. Gorgeous ten month old baby boy , I had him via emergency c section so my belly hurt for a while I haven't poked properly in about 2 years , , surprisingly I still have the strength to do a fair amount to beginners and intermediate tricks but problem is I now hate watching my vids back I the my belly I don't feel sexy all I can see is my belly , , I'm thinking the more I pole the more I will tone up . But finding it hard . Has anyone else had this issue ?? Sorry major rambling !