Oh cbr, you poor thing! I got upset for you when i read this post! When I read the bit in the email about you I actually got a horrible twinge in my stomach so I cant imagine how that made you feel. The ladies have given you some great advice, we’re all here for you no matter what.
I think you really need to talk to your boyfriend about this because if you dont it’ll eat you up inside. Do try to broach the subject calmly (easier said than done, yes!). You know him better than anyone so hopefully you can sort it out with him soon.
Please let us know what happens. I’ll be thinking of you x