[LittleJem]

Hi girls,
I’m a newbie on here but this post really seals to me so hope you don’t mind me replying.
I’ve been married just over two years and I discovered 18 months ago that my husband was having an affair and that it had started before we were even married. It shattered my world and sent me spiralling back down into serious depression, which I’d suffered from in the past. My confidence was less than zero and, well, I completely let myself go. I gained 30lb and totally just stopped taking care of myself. It was a vicious circle – the worse I looked, the worse I felt, but I just couldn’t break the cycle.
Then just before Christmas my friend dragged me along to a Poledance class. I stood there feeling so out of place and when I saw what the other girls were able to do my self esteem told me to forget it, get my stuff and go home because there’s no way my flabby overweight body would ever be able to any if it. I’m so glad I didn’t! From my first attempt at a spin I was hooked and within a month I had an Xpole at home.
Pole has done more for me in the past two months than anti-depressants accomplished in a year. It has given me back my confidence. Learning to work with my body is slowly teaching me to like it and be proud of the things it can achieve. I walk differently now, my head is held high and ive started taking a bit if pride in my appearance again. I’ve even lost 10lb. People have noticed such a difference in me and I do get some strange looks when I tell them it’s all down to pole but I really don’t care.
My Friday night pole class is the light at the end of the tunnel at the end of every week, and the friendship and support of the other girls has given me a bigger lift than any of them will ever know. I’m still at the beginning of my pole journey and can’t wait to see where it takes me – the only way is definitely up! x