what do i do when i cant poledance? <|3Ingrid
Jul 13, 2016
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So, i been dumped. By The person Who meant The World to Me.. Its a year ago. All This time i had a baaaaaad feeling about a Girl in his work place. Shes been his best friend since our relationship started being bad... I'm the one who noticed him being weird, I'm the one to bring up the conversation. I'm the one who moved. I'm the one sneeking on her instagram seeing all the little punches she's been giving me there.like, Drinking from my glasses and cups (I own a disturbing cool range of these), eating stawbeeys and drinkin whine- on my verandah. Spending my kind of special days with him.. Making shure I would se that she is with him.we been over for a year.. I talked to him alot of times regarding her and what I thought. He would say she's like a close friend, he's in a bad place. She was the only one to talk to... Bla bla bla.. A cuple of days ago he met me, to tell me he was seeing someone... And it was her.. I died. She destroyed my 11 year long relationship and now he is holding her in his arms... He should be mad at her! Holding me. But he just wont se what a cunt she is... He is a really sweet hones person. Kinda blind.. He promises they newer were nothing but friends until this may.. He is true. I know him. He is not a cheating person.. He would die. Literally.. He just refuses to se that she had this plan al along! I just don't know what to do with my life.. I was ready to marry him.. I hate her. The only thing making things better is to pole dance. Its kind of like a valium. I can relax. Not think and just enjoy. I was at a fysio therapist yesterday. And I have like an inflammation in my muscles and I am not alowed to do any workout.. If I don't get to dance soon. I think I'm going to die. Its the only thing I have.. She's everything. Pretty, skinny, fit, cute. I got vitiligo and alopecia.. And pole... And now I can't even do that. I can't even do a hand stand now... It's shit. I need people to understand. They are all just like. Just take som months off.. Should I just tell them to not breathe for a couple of months? I don't like telling people I'm sad. It's just now.. I don't know what to do anymore..